Ever go through old home videos and get those boughts of nostalgia? Or ever pick through old boxes of your favorite toys, with the plan of getting rid of them, but 4 hours later you find yourself surrounded in Barbies, GI Joes, hot wheels, and dinosaurs? Haha well maybe I'm the only one that has this happen to me, but then again... I doubt it(: Don't deny it; no matter how hard we all try to conceal it, I believe deep down we are all still a kid at heart. I think the difference is that some of us just try to hide it more than most.
Now me; I don't like hiding it at all. I wouldn't say I'm immature, I just hate living life without trying to look through the eyes of a child. Don't you remember when you were little and you could literally turn any boring day into the most adventurous time EVER? All it would take would be you and a couple friends, some odd household items, and your imagination, to be off sailing the seas, or running around magic lands battling trolls and dragons. At least that's how it was for me and my childhood gang.
I've lived in the same neighborhood for almost 16 years. (AKA, my whole life) with the same 6 "brothers and sisters" right by my side(: Lea and Seth, my sister, and Ben and Jill. We've known each other since we were born, for some of us we knew each other before people like my sister and Jill came along. We always were running around playing unicorns, tigers, the orphanage game, or starting some crazy awesome club. We even had stinking RANKINGS xD I was the leader, Lea was my sidekick, and then came Seth, Ben, Megan, and last but not least, little Jill, who'd been tagging along with us since the day she learned to walk. As Lea and I started to grow up though, we drifted apart from hanging out with all of them and soon it dwindled down to my sister and Ben and Jill hanging out. I don't know what it was, but somewhere in that summer between 7th and 8th grade, those last clinging remnants of being a child finally broke off and everything began to take over; computers, cell phone, middle school, makeup, friends, drama, etc. It was sad, but then again... I wasn't exactly complaining. :/
Thank heavens I finally realized that although growing up is good and we can't change it, I can still live each day as if I'm a kid seeing the world for the first time. Everything is so much more exciting that way! I dare you to try it(: And I also realized that yeah, so I'm almost 16, I have a job, go to highschool, own a car, and am getting ready to go off on my own in 2 years. Big deal. I still have 2 years in my house, in this neighborhood in the middle of nowhere, with the Gang all right next door, and all our old memories. So why not make it last?
Like yesterday, we all rollerbladed, biked, scootered, and ripsticked in the road for hours, until around 10:30, then went inside and built a fort, stayed up watching Jurassic Park like old times and passed out on the couch to wake up and go outside all over again.
Those are the days when I feel like laughing/crying. Laughing because it feels so good to go back in time, if only for just a little, but crying because I know I can't stay there forever. But nevertheless, we make every moment count, because for just a little while, I don't have to worry about the issues in life; boys, heartache, if I have enough gas money, what I'm going to do about my school schedule, what does God want me to do in the future, etc. For just a little while, I can be... I can think like... and I can feel like...
a child. And that's the best part of all ♥
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